Before Miss Z was born, I shared my reasons for never wanting a daughter and for the first time began to consider what it might be like to have a girl. Well, surprise! It's a girl! And before anyone starts to think I would like to send her back, I thought I'd share some wonderful things about having a daughter!
She's mine. J's mine too of course, but Z is mine even more somehow. J adores his father and we talk all the time about how he's strong/helping/fun like daddy. I can't say how Z will feel about me, but she'll be more like me than anyone else in the house. It's just nice to not feel outnumbered anymore!
There's no box. It's 2013, and while our world has plenty of problems, my daughter doesn't have a box she has to fit into. Following the heart of God doesn't require a box, just a willing spirit. I never felt like that was acceptable as a girl growing up. I love that I can teach Z to see things differently than I did.
She's laid back! From pregnancy to birth, from birth to date Miss Z is one chilled out lady! She is a constant reminder for me to relax. Partially because I need to relax anyway, but also because I don't want to 'teach her' how to be uptight or panicky all the time. Whatever I want her to be like in the future, I need to model now. So, she's helping me be better already.
She's beautiful! I have always struggled with a low opinion of how I look. I feel like I've come full circle since I was a teenager- appreciating my strengths more than I used to. But still, it's a bizarre feeling to look at her and think just how beautiful she is, only to have everyone comment on how much she looks like me. I don't consider myself a beautiful person, but to have her beautiful face remind someone of me is such a sweet thing.
I can't say what the future holds and what I'll think about having a girl once she can walk and talk. But I think its a whole new ballgame for me. And that's mostly a good thing I think! ;)
She's mine. J's mine too of course, but Z is mine even more somehow. J adores his father and we talk all the time about how he's strong/helping/fun like daddy. I can't say how Z will feel about me, but she'll be more like me than anyone else in the house. It's just nice to not feel outnumbered anymore!
There's no box. It's 2013, and while our world has plenty of problems, my daughter doesn't have a box she has to fit into. Following the heart of God doesn't require a box, just a willing spirit. I never felt like that was acceptable as a girl growing up. I love that I can teach Z to see things differently than I did.
She's laid back! From pregnancy to birth, from birth to date Miss Z is one chilled out lady! She is a constant reminder for me to relax. Partially because I need to relax anyway, but also because I don't want to 'teach her' how to be uptight or panicky all the time. Whatever I want her to be like in the future, I need to model now. So, she's helping me be better already.
She's beautiful! I have always struggled with a low opinion of how I look. I feel like I've come full circle since I was a teenager- appreciating my strengths more than I used to. But still, it's a bizarre feeling to look at her and think just how beautiful she is, only to have everyone comment on how much she looks like me. I don't consider myself a beautiful person, but to have her beautiful face remind someone of me is such a sweet thing.
I can't say what the future holds and what I'll think about having a girl once she can walk and talk. But I think its a whole new ballgame for me. And that's mostly a good thing I think! ;)
1 comment:
Oh girl, if I think too hard about the inticricies of raising not 1 but 2 girls I have an instant panic attack! I mean really! How do I teach them that's it better to be smart than pretty, better to be brave than frightened, better to be strong than weak?! But I trust God gave me those 2 girls for a purpose and ill continue to turn to him. Having girls has its advantages so I try to focus on those for now!
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