Learning how to grow
The quote by Oscar Wilde at the top of this blog has been one of my favorites for a very long time. It's a favorite because I identify so much with it. There always seems to be an aspect of myself and/or my life that I've not felt satisfied with and for a while I approached that fact as a victim. As a swooning teenager, I could convince myself that my circumstances would just magically change one day, the way they do in the movies. If I hope and pray just a little bit harder, everything could just fall into place. This quote summarizes the blaring billboard I was missing in myself. I spent so much time thinking and obsessing over situations and negative circumstances that growing in the midst of life never occurred to me. I honestly didn't understand that growth was something I would have to have an active part in. The kind of growth that can really change our life doesn't just happen - we have to facilitate it and be open to it. For me that usually means doing something different! And you can't really say "I'll grow later". Trust me, I've tried. Today is the day for the growth of tomorrow, as corny as that sounds. I'm down to about 6 weeks or so left before (so I'm told) my life changes more than ever before. It is tempting to use this stage of my life as an excuse to grow later because growth is happening whether I want it to or not! But I'm thinking that there is still growth I can learn and facilitate for myself.