Facebook has a brought a lot of negatives into our daily
life, but one of the more positive ones is the ‘On This Day’ feature that shows
you posts from years past. Especially
when it involves my kids, I always catch myself thinking, “Wow, look how little
they were.” or “I completely forgot about that!” What it really shows me lately is how far I’ve
come. If you know me, you know I can
take things really hard. And I’m just
going to be honest – the past 4 years have been really hard in one way or
another. In each category of my life, I
could write a book on how hard it is to be successful there. Housekeeping, parenting, schooling, marriage,
gardening, friendships, health/weight maintenance, losing a loved one,
financial security, job security/changes and the list could keep going. Life is hard.
And sometimes it is so hard that it to declare it a failure seems like
the only sane option.
If the first try or first few years of something is supposed
to indicate your ability to succeed in it, then I think my entire adulthood
would be considered a failure. The first
year I begged Mr. Butler for a vegetable garden, I had no idea what I was doing
and didn’t produce much to speak
of. Without our faith and commitment to
God, I’m certain Mr. Butler and I would have thought divorce was the only
solution on multiple occasions. I have a certain firecracker of a daughter
that at one time I thought I would never sleep or take a nap without
considerable fight. I can remember driving
a very specific route several times a week to my parents’ house about 3 years
ago because I was riddled with illogical anxiety and needed help caring for
myself and for my kids while Mr. Butler was at work. As I would drive I wondered if I would ever
feel normal again or be able to even consider having another baby.

If your life is hard right now, my best advice right now is to just wait for it. Things don't magically fix themselves usually. And even the ones that do, it rarely happens over night. But those really good things are worth the wait, worth the hard struggle, worth the hard work. The best punch line, the best relationship and the best result does not come quickly or easily. But if you just wait for it, you'll see what I mean.
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