Dreading things. Dreading a conversation, a deadline, an ending, a big job, a rejection, a separation. We all bump into dread, just like a dog underfoot sometimes. Ever since my days in elementary school, I remember searching for the next thing to dread. When it was far off, my body issued a sigh of relief! Deadlines or in the heat of the moment pressure panics me quite a bit. I just don't think well on my feet.
I do dream well though. I've always gotten flashes of beautiful places, sometimes out of my hoped for future and sometimes from an Anne of Green Gables scene. My heart lives to dream! So, what happens when the two parts try to co-exist? Well, I dream up things to dread! :) Everything from fantastic scenarios where people ridicule me to all the possible events surrounding mine or a family members' death. Ri-diculous.
Tension, judgement, assumptions and loads of dread can often billow up like smoke into notions that never really were there to begin with. I'm slowly learning (sometimes it seems verse by verse) that the Bible says things for a reason. Because they are true. Because they work. The things we allow ourselves to dwell on will change so much of our world. How many fights or worries have you had that were based on wrong information - or worse, information that you imagined?
I do dream well though. I've always gotten flashes of beautiful places, sometimes out of my hoped for future and sometimes from an Anne of Green Gables scene. My heart lives to dream! So, what happens when the two parts try to co-exist? Well, I dream up things to dread! :) Everything from fantastic scenarios where people ridicule me to all the possible events surrounding mine or a family members' death. Ri-diculous.
Tension, judgement, assumptions and loads of dread can often billow up like smoke into notions that never really were there to begin with. I'm slowly learning (sometimes it seems verse by verse) that the Bible says things for a reason. Because they are true. Because they work. The things we allow ourselves to dwell on will change so much of our world. How many fights or worries have you had that were based on wrong information - or worse, information that you imagined?
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
-Ephesians 4:8
And besides all of that, dread is presumptuous and divisive, even if just to our own selves. Today, and most days, I need to be reminded that everything I need to carry out what is in front of me is at my disposal if I only seek and ask for it.
And besides all of that, dread is presumptuous and divisive, even if just to our own selves. Today, and most days, I need to be reminded that everything I need to carry out what is in front of me is at my disposal if I only seek and ask for it.
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