"The eye sees only what the mind is prepared to comprehend." -- Henri Bergson
When I look in retrospect at all of the things I thought I had figured out or felt I fully comprehended, Bergson's quote shames me so much. When I think I know something, I tend to demand that I'm fully convinced of it and know nothing less. The truth is that my heart and mind hasn't been prepared to comprehend a lot of things. I guess that's why we have to keep learning.
Still, isn't that kind of scary? I mean if you only process accurately those things you are ready for, how can you trust your self and what you think you know? In an attempt at self-protection, I've always sought to know fully, accurately, authentically. Give me everything, no matter how bad it is, so that I can prepare for everything. And to acknowledge that I may not be able to know it all puts me in a very vulnerable spot. A spot I have refused to be in for a very long time. But that does come back to pride and arrogance though, right? If I had an attitude of humility about it all, I would be willing accept that there are things I don't know yet and be okay with it. Why do I feel so desparate to be in the know - to know more - to be in so much control?